falkeditupagain | IC contact post/voice mail

I don't want to be your daughter.

... Yeah. That's what's up.

But we're morails, your not my daughter...

[Except he knows that she knows that more than half the time he thinks about her like that.]

Yeah, but you want me to be, right?

Well...not want you to be, just....think about you like that.

Yeah. And that seriously sucks.

[she sighs heavily]

So what are we gonna do?

I think it's my brain trying to label what we have in way it's familiar with...

[He runs his fingers through his hair on his side of the feed, not sure what to say. Feeling a little like he's been caught red handed with something. Guilty.]

I have no idea.

... I was going to ask you if you wanted to keep doing this. Being moirails, I mean. If it's too hard for you or not worth it or whatever... I don't know. I just don't want you to feel obligated.

I'm not feeling obligated...I like being here, with you, yanno? Being there and someone you can trust and I can help you whenever you need it...

It just translates so differently though, I guess...it might just be an issue that pops up a lot. How its never exactly what either of us expects.

Hanna, I want to keep trying if you do. I don't know what that says about me-- maybe I'm too attached or something-- but as long as you're on board, I'm on board.

It's just that part of this is me being there and being someone you can trust so that I can help you when you need it. I keep telling you that, but I'm not totally sure you really get it, you know? So I don't know what to do, and it makes me wonder if you'd be happier if you just had Lea and your relationships were more human-normal. I don't want you to be confused whenever you're around me.

Vriska, you and I are both in the same boat. I've told you about my weird thing right? I don't let people go. I'm always worrying if i'm doing the right thing, that i'll bother you if I say something, that I'm not important. It's...kind of years of mental programming. It's hard to get over, but i'm trying and, if you can believe it, i'm getting better.

I just...have to work harder. And I'm sorry if I keep things from you, I know it upsets you but I'm so used to going it alone, keeping shit to myself that It doesn't even occur to me that I'm doing it. It's a bad habit.

[He tries to smile just a bit, maybe to get her to smile.] Just give me a little smack or something when ever I do it. Even for the little things. I need a little conditioning, I know.

Hanna, I know you're getting better. It's your confidence, and I've seen it getting better-- and I'm really, really proud of you.

I guess it just seems like we keep talking about stuff changing, but not actually changing stuff. And I don't want to smack you-- metaphorically, haha!-- just for being a human. But I can't be a human, Hanna. If we're going to keep going with this you have to completely understand that I can't be your daughter. Moirails and daughter are totally, completely different; way, way more than it seems like you understand.

Change comes slow...especially for me. I mean, I know I seem to do everything else so fast, but the base of me is insecure, and scared and really bad at this shit, so. Time is key.

[He thinks that maybe there is more to it than he figures, but time will fix that. He's positive. Because if this doesn't work out, he's not sure what he'll do. He doesn't want her to leave, and he doesn't want to fuck this up because they had made commitments and he didn't want to ruin all of that because he couldn't figure something out and adapt.]

I guess all I have to say to that is just remember that I can't be a troll either, so we've got our little speed bumps to go over. It'll work Vriska, I'm absolutely positive it will.

Yeah, you're not a troll. And I'm not gonna lie, I feel kind of bad trying to get you to adapt to my culture's relationship when I know I can't adapt to yours. But I'm not going to pull that "I'm going to break up with you for your own good" shit. If it really ends up being for your own good, I'm trusting you to take care of yourself and do it, okay?

But unless that happens, I want to be with you. In a real relationship.

[she smiles a liiiittle]

... Sooooo. Does that mean I can tell you my good news? I've reeeeeeeeally wanted to, but I've been waiting until we talked more about this stuff.

Alright. I promise, I'll do it. So long as you do too. We can have a little pact, alright?

[Though he is a little curious as to what the big news is.] Oh, yeah? Lets hear it!

All right, deal.

... I got a matesprit. That's the romance that's most like human romance.

[Well okay. That's big news.]

Oh! Huh...that's cool...do I know them? [He'll just settle in and grin, interested.]

You knew him before I did. It's a really recent thing, and it was really sudden, too-- we made out like an hour after I met him, and then we started dating the day after.

His name's Zell. He said you helped him with traps once.

[Oh my god Vriska, he's trying to be all happy for you but why does it always start with the making out?]

So you've only known him for just a little? [Maybe overly cautious even if he's met the guy before.] We talked like once...he seems nice, but you sure he's not an asshole?

[because hormones, Hanna]

He's not! He even tries to be all gentlemanly and shit.

[Hanna wishes his hormones got him that much action when he was her age.]

Okay, okay. Well still, you be careful alright? I'm happy for you, but try and pace yourself alright?

[He'll give her an encouraging smile though, raising an eyebrow at her.] So. Do you think he's super attractive?

Hanna, I started dating the guy after knowing him for a day-- I think it's kind of too late to pace myself!

But hell yeah, he's reeeeeeeeally hot. Have you seen him? I know he's too young for you and everything, but just pretend you're fifteen for a second. Super sexy.

[He snorts, giving her a playful shove.] Well someone is shameless.

But I guess I can agree with you. He kind of looks like Demyx and I dated the guy, so. Can't say he isn't.

[she shoves back]

I call it like I see it!

And Demyx is definitely not bad-looking. I can definitely see why you went for him.

Lea's better though. Sorry there isn't a mini version of him.

[He wraps his arms around her shoulders, kissing her cheek.] We shall mourn the fact that you can't have a man as smoking hot as Lea.....such a sad, sad day.

Yeah, right! Lea's good-looking, but Zell is hotter.

[she's taking advantage of that sideways hug though, cuddling against his side]

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[action] oops idk why I put audio in the subject line when I set it up as action; typo!

[action] That's probs my bad xD

[action] it's my fault, actually; I started it off with audio in the subject and idk why

[action] WELP obviously you're weird. Cannot believe you >8C

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[action] its okay I still love you 8D

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