falkeditupagain | IC contact post/voice mail

Well too bad. We all are.

Bluh bluh.

[she grabs his hand and kisses it]

You know what?

I love you.

Love you too, silly goose.

I miss our room. Dumb, right? It's just a room, but it'll be nice when we go back.

Naw...a room is something you know, associate with home. I don't think it's weird or dumb.

Maybe it feels weird because I wasn't that attached to my hive on Alternia. But I'd rather be with you anywhere than alone in our room, so I guess I'm not too attached.

[paaaaaaause]

Speaking of rooms. Sometimes, like every once in a while, I might be spending the night at Zell's. Okay?

[Hanna is just going to stare at her for a moment and swallow. They've already had this conversation about 'she is not his daughter' but...a good friend would tell her that at her age, kanoodling isn't appropriate either...right?]

Uh...you're not going to be like...getting it on or anything right? How old is this guy again? [Remind him, please, Vriska.]

We have not had sex! ... He's seventeen. Just turned seventeen.

Okay, good. I was just checking. Cause that's definitely not something seventeen year olds should be doing.

Heyyyy, wait, that's not fair. I don't want to wait until I'm seventeen! Maybe like sixteen, tops.

Have you ever heard the phrase, "take time to be a kid"?

I'm fifteen and I spent my whole childhood fighting to stay alive and feeding other kids to a giant spider. I think the hoofbeasts have left the stable on that one.

... And anyway, if I did it, it doesn't mean I'd have to stop doing kid stuff.

The hell is a hoofbeast anyways?

[But, Vriska...you're going to ruin his plan at keeping you a 'wholesome' kid with his family values.]

I guess, I'm just...don't be in a rush for it, seriously. Everyone takes it differently and sometimes it's a huge issue, so. that's all I'm saying. And I suppose I have no right to tell you what you should and shouldn't do in the bedroom, but really. There isn't any rush to give that away, alright...? [Awkward talk is awkward.]

I won't rush! But when I end up wanting to I don't to wait around until I hit a certain age. You know?

... Man. I kind of miss when you saw me as a mix of all those different things. What was it you used to say? I'm like your daughter and your sister and your mom and your best friend all in one. Now it's like you think I'm just your daughter. A little kid.

I guess, I just...it's just something my parents taught me was important...i've got my own values, other people have theirs. I mean, hell. I didn't have sex until I was like twenty-five. [Which he turned last November. Obviously he was in no rush.]

And I still think of you as all those things, but...we just talk about certain things that make the daughter part stand out more, I suppose.

Bluh bluh.

[she smiles a little]

Maybe this is one of my values.

But now you've heard my stuff, so come on; tell me what's going on with you. Good and bad.

[Hanna's just going to stare at her for a moment.]

I'm kind of missing Lea. Since i've been here I haven't gotten laid at all, which okay, that kind of sucks. Just thought you should know since, well. That is so not something you'd tell your daughter.

[she laughs]

Yeah, okay. Thanks for thinking about that!

... But seriously, how are you doing? I know the Pitch stuff is really getting to you.

[He had been smiling, but when she mentions Pitch, he sobers immediately.]

Oh...well? [Have a sigh, Vriska.] I can't shake the guilt. And I feel fucking awful about it still.

You want to talk about it?

[There is a pause, staring at her, thinking about how she dragged him away from home for his own safety. How much she loved him.]

Yeah...I think I want to...[Though there is a small, sheepish smile to go with that admission.] You get to ask the questions though, and i'll talk from there. I'm not too good at talking about shit like this, so i'll need some help, alright?

[she smiles back]

Yeah, okay. And I'll do that as much as you want, okay? So you don't have to keep stuff inside that's bugging you. If you don't want to have to say everything yourself, then maybe you can tell me just to ask you a question, and I'll figure it out from there? It's a hell of a lot better than finding out you've haven't been telling me stuff, anyway.

... Okay, uh, first question. Hmmm.

[she rests on his arm as she thinks]

Is it more guilt about killing him, or about making his friends upset?

Alright...that sounds like a good plan. And...you can always ask me questions okay? I'll try my best to stay as honest as I can be.

[He'll stare a moment though, considering before he shrugs, shaking his head.] I think it's the killing him. And then...questioning my own worth as a person because of it. I didn't have to, but I did.

But you felt like you had to, right? And you didn't want to take his deal.

I promised Lea, if it came down to it, to be me or him, I'd do my best to make sure it wasn't me.

And I did that, and because of it, I feel like I lost something of myself. Because all I wanted was a fight, and he gave me more than I wanted, because of his wounded pride, and I don't think he would have stopped even if I apologized. Fuck that. We're in too deep as it is...

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