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I know, but what if no one can go when I do? I have to be prepared for that!

I'd bring guns, and I can fight.

Then you reschedule. Seriously, I don't think its a one person job...

[He doesn't want to tell her this, but he's pretty damn sure communicating with the scientists will require tact, patience and communication skills that she doesn't really have.] You need someone who's gone before and talked with them if you want the trip to go anywhere.

[he's probably right in that assumption, honestly]

I don't want to keep putting it off forever.

Vriska, do you want me to be blunt with you? Because I can.

Like, there are reasons other than just fighting purposes why you shouldn't go by yourself.

Yeah, okay, you can do that. What is it?

One, you aren't the greatest at controlling your temper.

Two, you don't know where you're going once you're down there or what the escape routes might be.

And three, you have a history of being pushy and offensive.

I really don't think you're going to get anything out of this trip if you try to do it all yourself. Alright? That's all I'm saying. You need to be delicate and respectful when talking to those people, and I'm not sure you can do that, especially if they aren't going to be exactly cooperative. Does that make sense?

[a couple of years ago, Vriska would have lashed out at hearing this, making excuses for herself and calling Hanna a downer, a meddler, or worse-- she'd done similar things to Kanaya often enough when her faults had been brought up]

[but she isn't twelve anymore, and she's learned some things-- and so she just sighs]

... Yeah. I know.

But I'm just impatient. You're getting surgery and making illusion cloaks and I'm so proud of you, and what have I done? Nothing, that's what.

[a part of her had probably known that she was going to hear something similar to this, and that part of her had wanted to hear it; wanted to be talked out of going alone-- because no matter how much she wanted to be able to just take off when Hanna was done with his surgery, skip down to the scientists' enclave, and save the day? she knew that it was a bad idea]

[and so, that part of her had made her go to her moirail, so that she could have some sense knocked into her]

[The fact that she doesn't get pushy makes him smile on his end, feeling a little surge of pride himself. His little baby is growing up.]

Vriska, surgery is something i've been waiting for since I was sixteen. It's something that i've been putting off for nine years. The fact that I'm finally doing it isn't for some noble cause, or any of that. [Even if he dislikes Pitch enough to want to fight him and trap him somewhere the light will get to him, he can't justify fixing himself so he can do just that as a noble cause. Because it really isn't. It's a decision made out of anger, out of dislike, and something he's doing purely for himself.]

And the illusion cloak was a suggestion that I decided to listen to because I didn't want to be scared to go outside. I'm not taking steps forward, I'm taking them backwards. Really.

But patience is something that will help you forever, alright Vriska? That's something you can hold onto, and it can save your life one day, yanno? It's not a sin to wait. Especially when you could get hurt if you don't.

I don't blame you for being impatient, but there isn't anything wrong with waiting for the best opportunity either. It's the smart thing to do, and you're a smart girl. So, just sit and wait and you'll have your moment, alright? I know you will.

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But you're doing it for you! Which is even better, because you're all about the noble causes and not so much about taking care of yourself. That's a big step forward, that you want to do that, instead of thinking you don't deserve it or something. You didn't take a step back, the Animus forced you back and you just kept on being awesome anyway.

... What if you leave before I get a chance to go?

My 'doing stuff for myself' is pretty selfish though...I could of thought of better reasons, that's for sure...

[But if she says so.]

I'm not going anywhere if I can help it Vriska, so don't think about the what ifs, just...try and prepare yourself for what you can do right now, okay?

That's the point, Hanna. You should do more selfish stuff.

[she sighs again, and there's the sound of her slumping]

Can I do anything right now? I don't think I can.

You can do lots of stuff.

Maybe you can ask someone if they need help with a project? Be helpful? I'm sure there are tons of things around that you can do that can benefit you and someone else.

I don't want to help random people.

Well then I don't know what to say, Vriska. Maybe ask if there is something you can do for the household?

Maybe I could do something for you. Something big that'll make me not seem like a little kid to you anymore.

Vriska...

[You're still a kid and while he understands you've been through a lot, that just makes him want to give you more leeway. More of a childhood, even if that's hard here.] You're not a little kid, but you're still a kid.

Yeah, but I don't want you to see me like one.

You're not just a kid, but I really don't think... [He'll just sigh.]

You're a kid until you're not one, alright?

I'm a kid, but I'm also kind of not one, too.

I know that, but you're still a kid. Even if you're not completely one. A young adult.

Whatever. I can still do anything adults can.

Not everything.

[And okay, he's kind of teasing her right here, don't you mind, Vriska.]

Yes everything!

[He could name a few things, but he's not going to go there.]

Okay, Vriska. Okay.

I was a little kid when I came here. A clueless and immature little kid. But I'm not anymore. I want to show how grown-up and dependable I am.

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