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[That gets Hanna to laugh, grinning at the way Riku is suddenly animated, leaning against him as they move towards the door.] You're cute.

But, yeah. You can sometimes it can get a little too much. And you'd rather be alone. I get that. I mean, Vriska and Lea can get a little too clingy when I'm sick, but...usually I don't mind. It all depends.

Hey, I'm not. [ he's careful when he wraps an arm around him, shivering as a wall of cold hits him. ]

I don't mind being around him. I like it. [ just, an awkward pause, with an awkward laugh along with it. ] He's just really focused on protecting me, it kind of feels like he's setting me up on a pillow with a... protective bubble, and floaties.

Yeah, you really are. [Hanna doesn't mind the cold quite as much since he's got a few layers on and a hat, but he can feel it inside, like a chill creeping into his scar and he's not sure he likes it. It wasn't this sensitive to cold before.]

Now you know how I feel. I hardly get to do anything on my own, and I know I can't fight as good as you, Lea or Vriska, but its still like you're handling me with kid gloves sometimes.

[ he hadn't really... thought about that, before. combining what he feels sometimes with terra and how he views hanna, he realizes that it is similar... and it's understandable, he realizes, as to why hanna feels coddled. because he does, too. ]

... oh. I get it. [ he dips his head down a little and chuckles. ] Sorry, Hanna. I guess... I didn't realize what I could've been doing.

And I'll have you know I've been living on my own since I was sixteen. I'm not completely helpless.

[He nudges Riku gently and smiles at him.] Just, don't forget it. I don't mind when I need it, but yanno. Sometimes it's unnecessary.

[ a nod, as he smiles back. ]

Good deal.

I think I'll remember.

Alright. I'll hold you to that and won't hesitate to remind you!

But, you still owe me an explaination of you and Terra, huh? Is that something we're going to talk about now cause I've been dying to know.

[ urk, he scratches his cheek. ]

Th-there's not much to say...

Obviously because I didn't hear about it till after the fact.

Hey, I told you why.

[Hanna's going to glance up at him and shrug.] Yeah, and I told you that it happened before Lea left for a week.

[Not that he's mad.]

[ huff. ]

He told me he... felt like he wanted to kiss me. It was weird, I remember that night he was talking about, and being nervous, but not really knowing why. It wasn't really a discussion, he said he couldn't keep being my Master when he felt that way. I think he thought he might take advantage of me.

But, I guess... I realized there was something off, so I told him I had to think about something. Joshua helped me realize that I liked him back--but I couldn't see it because [ hesitation; a sigh. ] ... I didn't think I deserved anyone.

[Hanna listens, raising his eyebrow a little, but not commenting. He doesn't really say much of anything until Riku gets to the last part, frowning.]

Yeah, well. I hope you realized that you were wrong because even I think I deserve someone. Whether or not I'm able to keep them is the other thing, but it's seemed to work out just fine. You have to stop letting your worries get in the way and yanno, do that listen to your heart thing that people from your world always talk about.

It'll tell you something, I'm sure. But...I'm glad you're happy with it. To be honest, I was a bit worried since yanno, you said you weren't interested in any of that, but if everything is all good and square then I have nothing to be concerned about.

[ hanna's reaction makes him a little wary. ]

Why were you worried?

Well, I dunno.

Maybe you felt obligated or something? I'm just saying, no one is above being manipulated, it can happen to anyone. Not to say that Terra is a bad guy, because he's not.

I just wanted to make sure you were okay, that's all.

[ his stomach knots a bit at the thought of being obligated--that'd exactly what he'd been hoping no one would think. ]

Actually, I'm happier than I've been for a long time.

[ his voice is quiet and a little vulnerable, but there is that burst of shine, reflected in his soft smile. ]

[And the only reason Hanna had questioned was because of their previous conversations on the subject, but he's happy he's fine.]

That's what I like to see... [He leans a little more heavily against Riku and looks up at him, hand lifting to gently poke his pointer finger into his cheek.] You've got a glow to you.

[ he waves a hand, shy and blushing. ]

Shut up.

Never. I think its cute.

[He's just going to continue on walking and leaning against Riku, enjoying the time out of the house and with Riku. Extra enjoying it because he can tease Riku and that's always been fun.]

So...Anything else happen that I didn't know about?

Ugh. Tease Terra, not me. At least he takes it in stride.

... I wanted to tell you what was happening, why I tried to push you away.

Awww, but its fun teasing you. You light up like a christmas tree or something.

[And he thinks he has a right as the occasional dad stand-in.

But, at the mention of their fight, Hanna quiets, renewed interest in the conversation flaring up easily.] Oh! Well...if you want to, go ahead! I'm listening.

[ he breathes in deep, before exhaling. ]

You weren't in the dreamscapes. You didn't get to see just how bad I could be--how... dangerous I was.

I know you've been around me a lot from your point of view, but it's different. I thought, if you couldn't see how much of a risk I was, I'd make you see it.

[ he rakes his hair back, grimacing. ]

We saw how that worked out.

[Hanna raises an eyebrow at Riku.] So you make me scream at you, and its all because you think you're too dangerous for me to hang around?

[Hanna gives him a look. A long, long look.]

Dude, my best friend back home is a Zombie. I have a friend who is a vampire and I go out and relocate paranormal creatures for a living. Things that think I'm tasty and don't just want my heart, they want everything else attached too.

My doctor doesn't have a license, works in this skeezy back alley, and I pay him in drugs.

And the magic I know? I learned from a deadbeat drunk homeless guy.

[So.]

What part of that makes you think I'm afraid of taking risks and that we couldn't be friends if you were one?

I never said you were afraid of taking risks--

[ riku frowns like hanna's words are bitter coffee, finally setting on a bit of a defensive scowl before he looks away.

this just leads right back into riku's point--hanna didn't see. that's all well and awesome, what hanna's done in his world. riku wouldn't get near a doctor, let alone one that didn't have a licence, but it's different. he just quietly shakes his head. at least hanna knows, now. ]

It was stupid. I was stupid. We agree on that.

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