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Hey, you've reached Hanna Cross, paranormal investigator extraordinaire!

Leave a message and I will totally get back to you as soon as humanly possible. Which will be soon. Ish. Awesome, thanks!

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It just is!

... Sometimes you seem that way in the mornings.

[like after she's disappeared for a night]

I still don't follow...

... You noticed I leave sometimes, didn't you.

Oh... [They're actually talking about this? Alright.]

Yeah, I notice.

Why does it make you sad?

Well...usually you leave after we talk about something. And then I worry about you, I guess... [Well, it's more than 'he guesses', but...he doesn't want her to get upset about it either. so.]

Sometimes I just have to get away, you know? Something happens that makes me feel like shit, and telling you right then would interrupt stuff and make you feel like shit and... I don't know.

I promise I'm staying safe.

I guess...[Well. That kind of makes him sad, but he gets it. Sometimes he likes to be alone when he gets really angry. Or really upset, so. That makes sense, but at the same time he doesn't like it.]

If you're not coming home after being gone for a while could you at least text me or something then?

Doesn't that kind of defeat the point of needing to get away and also not bugging you? I usually do it when you're doing stuff with Axel, since that's sometimes what I need to get away from.

Oh... [Well, that was kind of a surprise. So sometimes she did it and he didn't even know she was doing it?]

Well. I just...want to know when you'll be home! So I don't worry, you know? I mean, you've gotten hurt before...and I don't want that to happen again. I'm not asking for you to tell me where you're going, just that you're out. And when I can expect you.

... What if I left you a note?

That would be nice...

I could do that. I guess.

[she slides down in her chair, just a little]

I really don't do it to make you sad.

I get it...I like being alone sometimes too.

It's not that, either. Sometimes I just have to pretend this whole messy thing... isn't a thing.

I like living with you more than I've liked living anywhere, but things were so much less complicated when I lived by myself.

Hey, that's what happens when you get roommates.

Not to be weird or anything, but when Zombro moved in with me? Things changed around the house. I loved having the company, and to not be alone, but you have to think about a lot of different things. and everyone involved.

It gets complicated.

Bluuuuuuuuh, you really don't get it, do you!

...If you just told me I might.

It's not a roommate thing. It's a you-and-me thing, and a you-and-Axel thing. It's a "sometimes it really hurts to be reminded that you live in his room because you picked him" thing.

Oh...

[Hanna sighs and stares up at the ceiling a moment, away from the PCD before he tries to think of a way to explain that to her. A way that might make her feel a little better.] You have those quadrants right? They're all equally important to you, right? So, say you filled that matesprite one. Which would you logically sleep in a bed with?

That person, or me? Honestly.

It depends! I mean, if I were going to have sex with them that night, then yeah, but--

Look, I get it's your human thing. I'm not saying it's bad or whatever. It's just hard, okay?

[He's just going to blink for a moment and then has a desperate need to clarify something. So excuse him while he's blush.] Uh, just so you know, that's not what I'm doing every night. Like, that hasn't happened at all.

Why not?

-- But anyway, that just kind of proves my point. Even when you're not having sex you choose him. There are probably a lot of reasons, and like I said, they probably make a ton of sense to a human! But I'm a troll and for me, you are the person who feels like the other half of me. Who it feels easiest to fall asleep next to because I trust you the most, and feel the best and most comfortable when I'm with you. I want you to be happy and I'm glad he does all that for you, but I can't just change my feelings! It'd be pretty cool if I could, but I can't. So sorry, Hanna, but it's probably always going to hurt.

[she hauls herself up from her chair]

I gotta go. I'll stay safe and I'll see you later, okay?

[The 'why not' gets him to blush even more, but he's going to set that aside for now.

He doesn't quite get it, and it makes him feel like an ass because he doesn't, especially since it hurts her, but...at the same time he doesn't know what to do. She'll say he's trying to accommodate her if he changes his sleep schedule. So there isn't much he can do about it.

He deflates a little as she goes to leave though, nodding.] I...I alright. Love you?

[she hesitates a little]

I know you do. Really!

And me, too.

[audio] LOL I WAS WONDERING ABOUT THAT XD what was it supposed to be?

"Happy sappy" Not Happy Sapphire xD

ohhhh okay

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