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Hey, you've reached Hanna Cross, paranormal investigator extraordinaire!

Leave a message and I will totally get back to you as soon as humanly possible. Which will be soon. Ish. Awesome, thanks!

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[Vriska hasn't contacted Hanna at all since Sunday-- she feels like talking to him would make it harder, for her and probably for him too-- but she has been doing a lot of thinking and introspection and she's pretty sure she knows how to articulate this now]

During the door event, I was pulled through Pitch's door by accident, and one of the things that happened was that these shadowy fear things got into my head and told me that they could keep me forever and make me like him, and showed me what it'd be like if that happened. I was awful and powerful and completely terrifying, and.

It was really, really tempting.

It didn't make me want to rush off and take them up on their offer; I couldn't do that to you. But it threw me back to when I was on Alternia, trying to be the strongest and scariest and best troll. I've been trying to kid myself for over a year, telling myself I can just turn the troll part of me off, but those shadows showed me that I can't, and that freaked me out. I was ashamed, too; like I wasn't being a good enough human for you if the idea of being powerful and feared was still so attractive.

... Anyway. That's not the only reason I've been in such a funk lately, but it's a big part of it.

Don't tell anyone about that, and don't tell him I told you. Okay?

[Hanna knows that always bothers her. The difference between humans and trolls, but he never asked her to stop being a troll. Just...how to act around people. That's all.

Though at the same time, his advice was people advice. Maybe that was why it was so hard for her?]

You know I won't tell. But...Vriska, you know I don't want you to change who you are.

Would you really still want me if I had taken them up on that offer? I sure as hell wouldn't blame you if you wouldn't.

Vriska, you're always asking me this stuff...and I always give you the same answer. Maybe if you had actually done it, and I experienced that, I might change my mind. But right now, no. You're still Vriska, and I still love you.

So stop with the conditionals, alright? [He sighs, heavily.]

Until the day I tell you something has changed, you don't need to ask, the answer is going to be the same. Okay?

I am not. Geez, Hanna. I'm trying to open up to you about something that's been bugging me a lot and you're just telling me to shut up.

That isn't what I'm doing. I'm reassuring you, like you reassured me. [He would never tell you to shut up, Vriska. Not in a situation like this.] What you're telling me is serious, and you're upset about it.

And so I'm doing exactly what you did to me, to help me. Because when you said I love you, I never used to believe it. I couldn't, because I didn't think anyone could.

And I think that somewhere, you think that maybe just a little too. But it isn't true. I love you, always and forever, okay?

I do believe you, Hanna. But that's not really what this is about. Thinking you don't love me isn't what's been bugging me. Being tempted by that other stuff is.

I get it, I really do. But there is more than one issue here and if I have to remind you then I will.

Okay, then what's the other issue!

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