"Yeah, okay. Fair." He doesn't really wany anyone to think he did this on purpose so maybe he can figure out how to say something that will make it unquestionable.

"Okay, sure. Fine, I get protection I don't fucking deserve, but not everyone is going to see it as 'well he fucked up, let's move on'. I don't want to make excuses, I want to be accountable, and apologize, but I am not some kind of public speaker. I ramble like shit and if I workshop it too much, who's going to believe me anyways? It's a shit show."